Wineskinned Ashes

If you had told me one year ago today that I'd sit in my office chair breathing a sigh of relief after what I can only describe as being burned at the stake in our foster care journey I'd laugh...

For the love of Suddenlies

Grief has a way of changing you. I never really understood it until about two years ago even though I’ve had my fair share of grief before that. Grief. What is it? Depends on where you look. You can google...

Angered Grief

Three months ago my world was rocked. We knew it was coming. We knew she'd be celebrating in her Heavenly home sooner rather than later. We wanted that. We wanted her suffering, her pain to leave. I wanted that more...

For the Love of Yes

I am writing this sitting in an amphitheater overlooking the Columbia River Gorge. I remember when I first sat in these seats. It was the first time I stepped onto this property taking in all of its beauty. I was...

For the Love of Roots

I haven't been writing much these last 24 months. It's been a road of self discovery of sorts. I'm still grappling with it all. One minute I have a family life I adore, a job that I love, a world...

Year Seven

Hi Dad, In a few days you'll have been gone for seven years. I can still hear the phone call I received today, "Your dad was rushed to the hospital." I spent the morning in tears thinking about how I...

A Box

Your children miss you, Dad. Today, I heard Braddah listening to your music. I did the same on the way to work. I don't think today will ever get entirely easy. I hope you're singing and dancing with those who...

A Letter To My Younger Self 2020

Dear Younger Me, Happy first day of your new year. Are you ready? Because I'm not. It was such a crazy year last year and I wanted to warn you. Maybe when you get here you'll be able to side...

Today.

Dear Dad, I'm struggling today. My heart is heavy as I think of you. Six years ago today my phone rang with your caller ID. I remember getting ready for work and instantly becoming angry. He's two days early. He...